27 September, 2008
Hi
15 July, 2008
Am I here or not?
When Deepa asked me if my blog has been closed,I was taken aback.I did not write anything since May 19 th because Things became really busy for me at the Home front first and later because of my new job as a Principal in a newly started school.It has only the First Std. and has a lively class of 8. It is very challenging for me not only at work dealing with new people after staying confined in my house [figuratively] that is not meeting/working with anyone other than my family or at the most my neighbours , but also trying to fit in my commitments to myself and my family. I will admit that that there have been times in the past one-and-half months if I had made the right decision in starting to work outside the home for pay. But I decided to stick-on regardless,for the work can't get worser than cleaning up after a Tsunami,would it? And Hard work does not Kill , either.
There are two things that make me like working :-
1. working with children ,helping them learn.
2.the fact that I get home to bring a modest but considerable packet now that is all mine.[this is my first decent job]
So, for now I have decided to continue,come what may.I want to do the best that I can in this job so that ,atleast'that thought will stay with me.I dont expect to be appreciated.So far ,I have not seen that;I am looked with askance as I am the only person who is new in the Teaching staff category;and people are watching me ,to see if I would make a wrong step. But still I mean to plough on.
19 May, 2008
Frustrations vs.Hope
14 May, 2008
Disasters-manmade/natural;personal/regional/national/international
In Yangon, human activities and Politics are aggravating the disaster.The earthquake tells us of how disasters come unexpectedly.
What Happened in Jaipur was really cruel -some five to six blasts in a matter of 30 minutes killing and maiming innocent people is truly shocking.So are the instances of honour killings and Infanticides that are being a part of everyday news.
We ,as a society ,must not loose our humaneness and become insensitive to these instances of beastliness.Each of us must try to ensure that in our everyday life ,we are showing kindness and tolerance to our family members and neighbours,at the least.Forgiveness,seeing things from a different perspective and resilience would help us to tackle these kind of hate-crimes.It is really heartening to see Jaipur-vaasis say they will not let terrorists break the harmony in their city.
23 April, 2008
Kolam ,in Tamilnadu / Sona in Angola
I had heard somewhere that if you need something-whether information,or help,The Lord [with Whatevername or Whateverform]whom we worship sends it our way;it has always been so with me.So I am hopeful of finding those interesting hubs /blogs again.Meanwhile I will give you something interesting,which had first caused me to believe that the world and its people are the same underneath;and that any difference seen are but superficial--be it music,art or even Kolam.
Sometime in 2004/05 ,I came across a book on Math for Children ,explaining the different folk forms of Math across the world.In it I came across a design from Angola which lookedlike/was same as Kolam but for the execution.In Angola these designs are called the "Sona" or the "Lusona";they were drawn on the sand by the village elders[usually male] as they told stories.The designs were the sameones I draw in front of my doorway ,only they were drawn to illustrate a story ,while I draw it at the start of the day as a prayer and as thanksgiving to the Sun and Mother Lakshmi .
Though this post is dated 23/4 ,I wrote it only on 2/5 as I couldnot get a flow of thoughts and words to express myself --which,incidently,is the topic or a part of the topic for this months TIFC.This is strange,as did not think I would be writing on the Topic of TIFC.The colours for this month are pale /lighter this time which I feel suits our summer and the winter DownUnder.
17 April, 2008
TIFC-How it Sensitises our Thinking
11 April, 2008
Change,what it means to me/ The Cat's Hold.
Change is a fact of life that is a constant.No matter who you are or ,what you do ,you are faced with it.
Some people resist change;others embrace it with both hands.I find that fortune favours those who embrace change. Change is like a wave and those know how to ride it are successful.
For some ,change happens;others make it happen.
Some have constant encounters with change -ranging from the drastic but sudden variety,like natural disasters etc., through the moderate but sudden kind [of falling ill to Chikungunya ], and the milder,but still sudden, everyday variety :- "the auto -to -take -your -child- to -school -is -not -coming-today" kind. Also,the momentary kind as when the electricity goes off just when you want to Blog,sew,or put clothes in the wash.
It is these sudden kinds that cause feelings ranging from mild irritation to frustration to anger,sadness and Rage. Most stress and stress related illnesses like Hypertension,Type 2 Diabetes etc. are due to the after effects of these unresolved emotions .
Those who make Change happen for them are more prepared for the uncertainties that follow it ,like its pet dog .They are the ones who land on their feet;not fall flat on their face , because they were not prepared for it.
Well,I think I fall on my my seat and not my feet , usually. So, I suppose I am slightly better off,than those who fall on their faces , who I think , are better off than those who refuse to get up however way they fall.
I know that we can't cover for every possible liability;that we could not anticipate every fall or setback.There comes a time when you should just put your trust in the Supreme Being .and believe that He /She will never make you face something that you can't handle;or,at least not without resources to help you surmount the Change. For,what is Change if not an exam set to test whether you have picked up the necessary skills to survive it and also His/Her test to teach you to think less of yourself and more of others.,especially,Him/Her . In Indian [Hindu Philosophy] ,this kind of surrender is likened to the way the kitten lets its mother take care of him.
I am in the midst of a period of Change,myself. We will shortly be moving into our own apartment.It is under construction,now.We have to plan for the change we want there -like planning for storage in the Kitchen,the Bedroom,utility,hall etc.I am getting all sort of advice on that.--"have more storage"--"don't have a lot of storage ;you would invite clutter" and so on.
Another Change I am facing is that of entering the world of being employed(being paid for my work). I got an offer to head a school that is growing into its "Primary Years".They are starting First Grade /Std in June.
Managing change is about making Decisions that would help us grow.We feel anxiety when we are not certain of this ,that the change we are seeking is good for us. This is where Belief in ourselves,or in in the One above us ( "oopparwalaa"-they call Him in Hindi) that would help us.
I pray that everyone is able to make such Transitions without undue distress;that they are able to choose wisely and without feeling guilt or fear;that they have the necessary resources to make the Change happen the way they planned it.
25 March, 2008
Tessalations And Kolams-I
Kolam-The Traditional Floor Drawing of South India gives a fairly good overview of this Tradition of ours.I wish I knew how to create those computer generated Kolams!Nowadys,some Men are also showing a lot of interest in the way Kolam deals with Mathematical subjects/problems.One is ,as mentioned above,Tessallations;other areas are fractals,progressions,Spiral geometry[(?)i'm not sure of the correct terms,as i'm not into Math]and computing, too.This site gives further informative links on kolams.
Beyond Mathematics,Kolams touch on the subjects of Art, Religious Rituals,Spirituality,Anthropology,Sociology and Psychology.I will deal with them in subsequent posts.
19 March, 2008
Finally, A picture.
I have finally got the pictures of my work taken and also got it uploaded thanks to my husband's and childrens help.It was a total joint effort.As for me,I was feeling pretty bewildered by the wholething.My husband had to find the most appropriate setting-with flash or without flash.He also had to find the correct setting for focus.The Camera is something we bought recently to replace our previous manual one.I have to learn how to use it so that I could take pictures myself.
The work pictured here was designed By the Anchor Design Studio.I had done it in the Summer before the Tsunami.I had wanted to make it into a bag or something instead of the small cushion it was supposed to become.The threads and the stitches to be used were as per the design.But i executed the work with a variation to the straight stich recomended.[I used the economy verstion.I am feeling very sleepy so I'll sign off now.I 'll comeback tomorrow with more to share.
18 March, 2008
A little bit of Detail
About Twelve Years ago when my firstborn was a little girl of three,I had gone to a Lifestyle/Home-Life Exhibition to spend the coupons I had got from Madura Coats for buying their threads and other needlework supplies.They had given them as I subscribed(& still do)to their needlework magazine Anchor Needle'n'Thread.I had wanted to try the beautiful designs featured in their eye-candy of a mag.{I had gone berserk buying a lot of things-emb.skeins,crochet threads,knitting cotton,pearl cotton etc.}.My very-curious-and-couldn't-take-no daughter was fascinated by those threads.I saw her interest and told her that it was a no-no and she should play with something else.Was there ever a child who can keep their curiosity under control?!Mine didn't/couldn't.So she waited for when I was engaged doing something else,so I couldn't dissuade/distract her;she got her friend Sai to help her take the small closed bucket where I kept those "fascinating"threads and made off to the shade of casuarina trees that grew just beyond our compound ,to a corner where I could not spot her easily[behind a tree].They both must have had such fun separating the numbertags from the skeins [30-40 nos.] and entangling the crochet and knitting cottons[5-6 balls]and skeins as thoroughly as only two three year olds could.What an amount of time and effort it took me to unravell the whole thing! I was not in a position to throw away the whole lot after going to all the trouble of assembling my resources for the eyecandy stuff that was published in the Magazine. Infact it was a nightmare.After that event ,I packed away all my supplies so that all my attention does not go any where else but in engaging my daughter.It took me almost a month to remove the sand[beach variety]and dried casuarina needles from this Mass;another six -nine months to separate the skeins from each other; and it was three years before I cold go back to the thread supplies shop in Madras/Chennai to help me match the number tags to the appropriate coloured skiens.I thought that was that,until I found ,recently,a ball of fine deep blue tatting /crochet cotton amongst my precious hoard with the tangles still intact.So, I decided that there was /is some ununderstandable connectionbetween me and Tangled Threads that is difficult to explain. This became the name of the blog I had first created.Why did it become Tangled Web?I was always fascinated with a spider spinning her web so diligently and expertly without any formal training of any kind ,but with instinct alone. That's why!
17 March, 2008
So many Details-Exam Blues
It feels much better now that the worst is over and I am able to put them into words.
09 March, 2008
Happy Women's Day
I have a problem .My friend Diana sent me a clip to view.I was not able to see the joke.My daughter tells me I lost my funny bone.I wonder if it was because I am tired-bone tired.
Yesterday was Women's day.There was a discussion in one of the cable channels on the status of women especially in Tamil society.The panel had a lawyer, a Psychiatrist,a poet,a filmaker among them.[The psychiatist is a very savy person who also has/had a slot,Manam Malara(meaning-"let the mind blossom") in the Tamil DD channel in their Morning show.It is my favourite because she manages to connect the way the mind functions with societal mores/norms/expectations.This is a programme for every one.] In the Women's day programme she said that research shows that all babies were made as females ,at first,when they are concieved ;and that Testosterone production starts the differentiation when the feotus is about six weeks old.Very interesting isn't it?
01 March, 2008
March!
25 February, 2008
Meditation- Needlework
1).Shabda Meditation:-We close our eyes concenterating on the sounds we aere hearing.Later we focus on only on sound.
2).Vipasana Meditation:- We concenterate on the sound of our breathing only.
3).Zen Meditation:- We count our breaths (inhaling & exhaling is considered as one cycle)to a predetermined number say 25.Then, we count backwards to 1.
I was thinking how handwork/needlework is meditation in a way.We have to focus on what we are doing with our hands.That kind of focus leads to a calmness of mind;speaking of which,ironically ,I have to admit that I am not at all in a calm state now.
{I just had a shouting match with my 15 year old daughter over her jumping in to take over my seat(literally).We have one computer for the four of us.I could only get to blog/google when I have done atleast a part of my housework(which I find is a never ending one)and My daughter is so avid scrapbooker/chat-erthat she sits at the net whenever she gets the chance,especially when someoneelse has openned the net.Somedays I couldn't even come near the computer;so my frustration levels hit an all time high when I find someone purloining my time,especially when I am writing a post.}
Another thing which contributes to my frustration with the net is the frequent current/electricity cuts that we have here in Coimbatore.It makes me wish that I was back in Kalpakkam.As talking about Kalpakkam would fill up a whole page or more I will save it for later.
I will write another post ,soon,on how I think needle work is like meditation or Yoga
21 February, 2008
Things great and small
I learnt how to upload pictures,Made sopme pikcles &a fair amount of housework today.I posted the picture on my other site for which I wrote my first post today.I also got ideas about how i wanted to keep my work for the TIFC together.I must next learn atleast some rudiments of typewriting so that I can do this more easily,atleast without this pain in my neck(literally).I also want to be able to do that again(adding pictures to my documents,i mean).This is the picture I had uploaded .It is a picture of Sri Ganesha,the Lord of Beginnings.He is my personal God,to whom I offer all my prayers and actions.I feel/know he is always with me.We hindus start everything,great or small with prayers to Him.He is considered as the Lord of obstacles(Vignesha)too.
19 February, 2008
Changes in Traditions
The most visible change nowadays in our life is ,as Sharon Said ,is theway our lives revolve around the internet/cellphone& lso the way we celebrate Festivals
The one that I find funny is the way Valentine's day is celebrated in our country.I first heard/read about Valentine's day in a Dennis the Menace Comic as a child.I did not know why it was celebrated or what it stood for.But,today even a toddler knows when itis celebrated ,for what,etc.(It is called Lovers' Day in my native tamil).Earlier Shiva Rathri and Vasantha Panchami were the only festivity associated with February.Vasantha Panchami heralds the Spring season,is mostly celebrated as a North Idian festival and Shiva Rathri is an allnight vigil spent worshipping Shiva.Generally,it is considered that winter is over after Shiva Rathri(i.e. the raise in the mercury level is marked).Today this is observed only by the pious/believing Hindus&quite forgotten by the others.
Another change happened today,now infact;I learnt to "link" and "italicise" and "boldise" thru the relevanticons that have mysteriously(to me,atleast)appeared on my posting site. <
09 February, 2008
A Post,a Comment&a Response
I read your response to my comments on Kolam on Anil Menon's site,and thank you for the same.I appreciate your kindness in telling me of your work with Kolams.I am also glad you are using Kolams/Psykolo to help the visually impaired too.While kolam has been considered to be a woman's/female art ,it has always been scorned at by the men in the same society.One's Kolam skills will draw comment only when it is poor/nill.When I explained the benefits of kolam they were always surprised.It seems that it has gained some respect only in the past 5 or so years,especially by mathematicians.Mr.P.K. Srinivasan was the one to inform me of Kolam's significance in math.
Traditionally it has been held that Kolam drawing is a skill that shows the woman-artist's intelligence,diligence , manipulative/spatial intelligence,clarity of thinking,creativity&many more .I have personally found pre-occupation,&attention deficit invariably causes me to make mistakes in new/not-well-learnt kolams.At those times ,only the well learnt/practiced Kolams are easy to draw.So I use the Kolam ritual as a guage for my mental preparation for the day.I dont know if the posibilities of kolam in emotional intelligence has even been explored.
regarding Psykolo's use (yes i read the document authored by you &dr thangaraj;it is very good) for the LD children,It will bring far more benefits ,if it is done on paper/ slate/blackboard because it will give them practise of drawing the curved/straight lines that Kolam & handwriting(atleast English/indian languages)demand;Especially with dysgraphia !
Please let me know how I can help.I am talking mainly from my personal experience ,without the backing of any academic certification,except that sas a student of Psychology &a trained primary teacher.I suffer from dysgraphia,too :though I learnt of it Only when I did my teachers training.
with regards
Sita
I had read a post on Kolams a long time ago;on revisiting the site to check something I saw that there were responses to my comment on that site.Mr.Nagata had written to me asking me to contact him,but I could not as it was a mechanical reply ,it seems.I thought it might as well go to my blog as I felt it to be good ,and this being my area of work,informative too
08 February, 2008
Mistakes Galore!
That is not all.I opened my g.mail today to find 5 mail in my spam section. There were from people I didn't recognise (one persn called Pamela had sent more than one mail).I noticed another that said something erotic and I literally panicked and what do you think I did! I didnot open any of the mail and pressed the delete button impulsively thinking that there would be some virus if i opened any of the mail there. THen I wondered if it(the legit ones,I mean) might have been someone from one of the various blogs I had visited or from the response from someone who visited my site and left a comment or maybe even TIFC Fellows/Sisters.Irealised if you delete something you cannot get it back,and I felt very FOOLISH for reacting the way I did. I am very sorry Pamela I did not give you the benefit of doubt and read your mail.Now I know better.I now know it is alright to open the mail to findout if it is genuine or not.(this from my very net/computer savy daughter).
05 February, 2008
Then and Now
Now,of course the tamarind is still being deseeded in the same way there,but I am no more the carefree child who sat there talking to the women offering them some lighthearted occasions in which the tedium& the monotony of their tasks got relieved (I hope).My children refuse to do what we (my sister & I)willingly did.That is Change,Isuppose.
Ithought it would be easy to translate the memory these activities which are recorded in my head in my native Tamil idiom into English in which I have been trained to communicate.I find myself searching for the appropriate words that would describe the appliances/processes involved.
I find that this exercise has increased the value of my Language &Traditions in my eyes.
02 February, 2008
21 January, 2008
Many things to do
first, I've been invited to join a private school as the Principal.It is a new school,starting with the first and second classes.It starts in June'08.It would be an interesting and challenging assignment.
second ,I ve met new people ,whom I think would become close friends.
third I must start putting my head into my books and prepare for my exams in coming June.
fourth the Take it Farther challenge- I keep getting newer ideas before I could follow thru on the previous ideas.Right now it involves fabric painting with acrylic fabric paints.
finally I have to admit I find myself on the back foot as I realise i must learn certain skills to blog successfully, to be able to link with other sites ,and to be able to put pictures of my work on the site.I alsomust learn how I can draw kolams in my computer and also how to develop Kolams to enable children to overcome their Learning disabilities;i.e.how to guage and record progress made.,choosing the appropriate kolams for the many tasks invoved in thinking &writing and eye hand coordination.I also found that I didnot know the English language that well(atleast,not as well as a native)when I came across the fact that Tangled web had a different connotation from the one I had supposed it to have.I thought it meant confused!
11 January, 2008
The TIFC
others.I have to think on this more.
It took me a lot of time to put this together.At first I could think of only only my immediate circle of family & friends;thinking about the theme helped me find "Reference" figures in my society/country.So here they are.
Dr Kiran Bedi is the First Woman to join the IPS(Indian Police Service).She was ,also,a Junior level National Tennis Champ.As a Police officer she faced a lot of challenges and was frequently given what is euphemistically called "Punishment"Postings which she took up with as much zeal as if it had been a reward and brought about change for the better.The most famous of her contribvutions to the Indian Nation has been the change she brought about in the Tihar Central Jail,New Delhi(one of the most dreaded places in India).She caused the Prison to be a place for Reforming of characters &Personalities &attitudes and not just as a place of Punishment.She also improved the management of this Prison.She was awarded the Ramon Magsaysay Award for her tremondous work ,for which she used Yoga and Vipasana Meditation.